statistically insignificant

statistically insignificant                    January 12, 2018
i don’t have a dog to walk
because then i would have to walk
the dog. so i pace circles
in the confines of concrete bricks
because i want to walk
but am alone.
i pace circles around myself
thinking about finding my IQ test scores
from high-school while searching
for my community college
transcripts. statistically significant
inability to spell and short term memory
lapses and weak verbal skills
compared to myself.
i pace circles around the dog
i don’t have because i couldn’t rescue
my dog from our nightmare. short term
memory lapses and i never ate lunch
or showered today. there is something i want to say
but the words run away. weak verbal skills
and statistically significant cracks in my mind.
i pace circles over the courtyard bricks
covering the words i don’t say.
spelling be damned. i’ll write anyway.

you send your gmail address but i don’t
write the bad news or the good
because how do i say these cracks
these chasms in reality can’t be closed?
so i make circles and circles and circles
walking over my heart around the subject.
one year ten months nine days
from the palm tree seed message
and still we have planted no kisses
on the others’ bodies. statistically
significant discontinuities in the geography
of political boundaries you can’t cross.
short term memory impairment and exceptional
creative reasoning. mathematical genius.
superior critical problem solving.
but this equation has no solution
and i remember to forget the irrational
imaginary answer. i cannot ask you
how to spell I love you and i cannot
remember how to solve for the variable
of longing hearts.

About m

My ego wants to think I'm a writer but my heart knows I'm just another one of God's Kids who sometimes has words to say. 2 human kids and 3 feline kids call me Mom. Or Mooooooom. Or mewom, depending which you ask. I'm kinda-sorta busy being a student again; this time I signed myself up for a bizarre torture known as Graduate School. Theoretically in 4ish years I'll have earned some more nice letters to put with my name. Let's face it, I'm addicted to learning and probably need rehab to restore me to sanity and remove the obsession to read books. I don't remember what free time is but I think I like to spend it sleeping or playing in the mud on a river bank.
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2 Responses to statistically insignificant

  1. Those ‘weak verbal skills’ do pretty well!

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