statistically insignificant January 12, 2018
i don’t have a dog to walk
because then i would have to walk
the dog. so i pace circles
in the confines of concrete bricks
because i want to walk
but am alone.
i pace circles around myself
thinking about finding my IQ test scores
from high-school while searching
for my community college
transcripts. statistically significant
inability to spell and short term memory
lapses and weak verbal skills
compared to myself.
i pace circles around the dog
i don’t have because i couldn’t rescue
my dog from our nightmare. short term
memory lapses and i never ate lunch
or showered today. there is something i want to say
but the words run away. weak verbal skills
and statistically significant cracks in my mind.
i pace circles over the courtyard bricks
covering the words i don’t say.
spelling be damned. i’ll write anyway.
you send your gmail address but i don’t
write the bad news or the good
because how do i say these cracks
these chasms in reality can’t be closed?
so i make circles and circles and circles
walking over my heart around the subject.
one year ten months nine days
from the palm tree seed message
and still we have planted no kisses
on the others’ bodies. statistically
significant discontinuities in the geography
of political boundaries you can’t cross.
short term memory impairment and exceptional
creative reasoning. mathematical genius.
superior critical problem solving.
but this equation has no solution
and i remember to forget the irrational
imaginary answer. i cannot ask you
how to spell I love you and i cannot
remember how to solve for the variable
of longing hearts.