for j

for j                                  August 17, 2016
i miss you less everyday
but i do not weep
for faithless men
and so
there is a bottle of tears
labeled “j was here”
that i pour into the sea

i would pray you find mercy
but i know that the law of the land
is that you shall reap what you sow

planting tears in the heart
of a godly woman
is a dangerous game to play

i could wish you were in
only a prison of men
for then i would know what to say
but rather you are in a prison of foolish and faithless
and no tunnel i dig can get in

so i say goodbye and turn away
and miss you less everyday
once i told you
with me
you are always free
i was right to say
you would hang yourself
on the rope of my freedom
but i was wrong
for i can’t watch you die
and i love you too well
to chain you or cage you

my heart is the block that you stand on
and my freedom the rope you tie
once these were your treasures
you kept inside your chest
and you would swear to god
to love only me forever

but the prison of the faithless
is guarded by the moat
of forgetfulness and thoughtlessness
and i can’t watch you die
so i say goodbye
and turn away
and pour my tears –uncried– into the sea

About m

My ego wants to think I'm a writer but my heart knows I'm just another one of God's Kids who sometimes has words to say. 2 human kids and 3 feline kids call me Mom. Or Mooooooom. Or mewom, depending which you ask. I'm kinda-sorta busy being a student again; this time I signed myself up for a bizarre torture known as Graduate School. Theoretically in 4ish years I'll have earned some more nice letters to put with my name. Let's face it, I'm addicted to learning and probably need rehab to restore me to sanity and remove the obsession to read books. I don't remember what free time is but I think I like to spend it sleeping or playing in the mud on a river bank.
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