no angel

no angel                                        June 27, 2016
i wake from the dream in fear
and reach for you
but you are not here

in the dream i reach for you
i wake and i reach for you
but you are not here
and you are not near

i wake from this dream and need
to know it was only a dream
like the evil nightmare
i have over and over

the one where i’m high on hashish
and too full of pride and shame
to confess my own evil and madness

but that dream
i wake and i know
it was only a dream
and i will never be stoned again

i wake from this dream in fear
and i want to hear
you wish me good morning
so i know it is only a dream

i used to wake happy
to see that you think of me
and message me while i sleep
and forget my dreams

no matter my dreams
when i knew your heart was with me
like an angel to protect me

About m

My ego wants to think I'm a writer but my heart knows I'm just another one of God's Kids who sometimes has words to say. 2 human kids and 3 feline kids call me Mom. Or Mooooooom. Or mewom, depending which you ask. I'm kinda-sorta busy being a student again; this time I signed myself up for a bizarre torture known as Graduate School. Theoretically in 4ish years I'll have earned some more nice letters to put with my name. Let's face it, I'm addicted to learning and probably need rehab to restore me to sanity and remove the obsession to read books. I don't remember what free time is but I think I like to spend it sleeping or playing in the mud on a river bank.
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